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Well Hello Everyone!

I hope everyone is having a jolly good holiday season and I hope that everyone had a great Christmas. I figured that it is time for a little update. I am now in my 23rd week of my pregnancy and little Landon and I are doing great as well as Kyle too. Yes, we decided to name our little boy Landon- actually Landon Kyle, after his daddy. The name is official and it's not changing so be excited to welcome little Landon Kyle into the world come April! We have always loved the name Landon- not sure why but we have always loved it. During my first trimester in pregnancy before we had found out what we were having I was prompted a couple of times that this little spirit inside of me was indeed a boy and that his name should indeed be Landon Kyle. So that is what his name will be and we are so excited to bring this little guy into the world to be our son.

I haven't taken very many belly photos and I will tell you why. It has nothing to do with anything else but the fact that my room has been messy for the past 3 months and it is embarrassing to show it in a photo. =) I will prove it to you here:

This is me at 20 weeks. If you look closely behind me you will see a big pile of clothes on the floor and an unmade bed (I tried to cover it all by standing in front of it but did not succeed). This is the only big mirror we have in our house so every time I would go to take a picture of my belly I just couldn't because my room was too messy and it would embarrass me to show people that picture, but when I turned 20 weeks I knew that I just had to suck it up and take a picture because this would be the only chance that I would get (I was also very busy). So there you have it, a belly photo at 20 weeks with an embarrassing picture of a messy room in the background. Now that I am done with school (WAHOO!) my room is much cleaner and I promise to take a picture of me today at 23 weeks. =)

My belly has officially popped and it is much bigger than my belly in the above photo. It is fun to see how fast my belly has grown in just a couple weeks. In fact, my belly seriously just popped overnight. One day I woke up and it was big and everyone around me tells me that I actually look pregnant and I am glad. I must admit; however, getting big is a more difficult adjustment than I thought it would be. I expected that my belly would grow but I didn't expect that every other part of my body would grow as well. When I discovered my first stretch marks the other day, (in places that I never expected to discover stretch marks on), I cried a little because a lot of people have told me that they didn't get any stretch marks until the last month of their pregnancy and that they only got them on their belly. But then I realized, with the help of my sweet husband, that getting bigger and getting stretch marks is all apart of most pregnancies and that I am still beautiful no matter how big or stretchy my body gets. I also felt really guilty too because in my previous blog posts I have said things like "bring on the stretch marks!" and "bring on every other thing that comes with pregnancy" because I am just so blessed to even be pregnant and now here I am crying about stupid stretch marks. What a hypocrite I am! I guess that I really just didn't expect it all to happen so soon. People kept telling me that I was so small for the longest time and I kinda hoped I would stay that way but now that I am not small I've got to adjust to people telling me that I am fat (yes, I've been called fat twice, just by family members who mean well though). Oh well, the truth is that, yes, 99% of women do get fat and do get stretch marks when they are pregnant. There is no escaping that fact. So, I kind of had a moment of self realization when I recognized how silly I sounded crying about stretch marks. What a blessing it is to be a mother, how lucky I am to have the ability to get pregnant. I promise I will try my hardest to never ever complain about the side affects of being pregnant again. I will try so hard to stay positive and think positive thoughts. Getting bigger just means that little Landon is getting more and more healthy and more ready to come into this world.

I love feeling him move inside of me and seeing my belly move is really cool too. Kyle and I watched my belly the other day and just giggled when Landon would move so much that we could see his movements from the outside. It was so neat for Kyle to be able to see that and to feel his son moving around. We had my 20 week ultrasound a couple weeks ago and we got to see what this little guy looked like. It was amazing the most amazing moment when the doctor pulled up a 4D photo of him that I wasn't expecting to see (I didn't know my doctor had the 4D ultrasounds). I just cried when I saw this picture:

Someone told me that it looks like he has a receding hairline and 8 fingers but Kyle and I think he is the most beautiful thing in the world. He doesn't have 8 fingers by the way and I'm pretty sure that the look of the receding hairline is just the shadow of the ultrasound. The doctor said everything looks really good though- his brain, his spine, his insides, his size. We are very blessed to have a healthy baby boy growing inside of me. Very very blessed.