So we know where we are going to be moving now! Kyle was offered a couple jobs from Salem to West Jordan and we picked one right in the middle. We are going to be moving to............... !!!!LEHI!!!!
Crazy huh! Lehi! We are excited. We are excited to be working for Alpine School District and excited for Kyle to start as a new 9th grade math teacher. We feel really good about our decision as it was a really hard one to make. All the schools were so great and it was really hard to choose but in the end we really felt good about Lehi. It's a great area and it reminds us of Spanish Fork because of the Lehi Roller Mills (my dad runs Leland Milling Company in Leland), the fairgrounds are close by, there are a lot of farmers, and it just has that country feeling like Spanish Fork has...or used to have. =) So we are excited.
We are still unsure about a lot of things right now like when we will be moving...exactly where we will be moving...so many things but we feel very blessed that Kyle has a real job now and that we will be moving on to bigger and better things. It will be hard to say goodbye to Logan but so fun at the same time because this is the whole reason why we came up here- to go to school so that we can get grown up jobs someday. Well that day has arrived! We can't wait for everyone to come visit us in Lehi...you will right? Because it's in Utah County now, you have no excuse =)
Well, baby updates......
Not much has happened. Braxton Hicks have calmed down a little because I think it is Spring Break this week and it has been an easier week on my body because I'm not teaching dance and babysitting. As for that feeling I had about the baby coming earlier than expected....I have no idea now. I feel like he could come at any time- soon or late. Counting down is torture. The realization that I am going to be taking care of a newborn baby in about a month is settling in and it is a really overwhelming feeling. I am so nervous about so many things- not so much nervous for the delivery (just as long as I get that epidural) but nervous about coming home with a new person to take care of. My life so far has been mainly taking care of me. I take care of Kyle too but he's easy to take care of- he's not picky. Now I'm going to be dedicating all my time to this little boy and I feel so inadequate. I feel like I'm not going to be able to do it all. To handle it all. To be the kind of mom I want to be. I know every woman probably experiences all these feelings and they all turn out fine but it's just so scary when you are experiencing it yourself.
I feel so ready but so not at the same time. Some days I wish that my water could break that instant and other days I wonder if I even should have taken on this responsibility. I watch the news of all these tragic things that happen to children and it scares me to death all of the things that could happen to my child. There are so many things to worry about and I know I'm going to be the most worrying mother out there! That is one of my biggest weaknesses. When I got our dog, Sammy, I worried about her so much that I actually recorded every little thing she did to make sure it was normal. I recorded when she ate, how much she ate, when she pooped, what it looked like.....I'm not joking- I had a poop log for my dog. I'm that bad. After a while though I stopped worrying so much and just had to let go. Maybe that is how I will be with being a new mom. I think that motherhood is just a huge leap of faith. I have to have faith in Heavenly Father and in knowing that his plan is a plan of happiness and as long as we stay faithful he will help us through whatever trial we face and help us be happy. I know this- I've known this since I was little. If we have faith Heavenly Father will help us. I just have to believe it and let go of my earthly fears and let my faith take over. I hope I can do this. This will be my goal- to strengthen my faith in my Heavenly Father and in myself. 3 more weeks. 3 more weeks. 3 more weeks (maybe 4)...but no more than 4. =) Keep us in your prayers!
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